darkeness is not a color

in my darkest times, i still breed expectation, in my hollow days i loose something each time, i have been filled with darkness, my dreams are darkened in broad day light, my soul is darkened, deep darkness, my loins are filled with darkness - , my mind see's nothing - but darkness! why all this darkness? why all this pain? why all this - i question not the path i choose, all i ask is why all the darkness? why the hollowness? i still breed expectation - i still hope - i still believe - i know there is light - i will find the light -
but i thrive in my own darkness
im sorry im lost in my own words - i feel lost -
- im lost
feelings of loss
feelings of darkness
i feel lost
i think i need salvation
not the religious kind

i need me back somehow
im 2 steps from salvation, but im only taking 1 :)